“I hate myself when I get mad at my wife. I just lose it! I see red when Helena hasn’t done the household chores and there is no food in the refrigerator. I scream and lose control, but I just can’t stop. Then I feel like a monster when she cringes with fear and [...]
Garret found it hard to move on from the experience. He made abusive statements about the driver who cut him. His body became tense and stiff as if he was protecting himself from being taken off guard again. Garret got another attack of low back pain that always seemed to affect him when he was angry and unable to do anything about it. It reminded him of that feeling of outrage and helplessness when Astrid broke her promise by choosing her family over his for the big holiday celebrations. He had felt deeply betrayed and disregarded. He had never forgiven her disloyalty. He wasn’t going to let that happen again this year. He couldn’t allow himself to forgive and forget because that would be asking for more.
